cant stay away from crack

Hi Sue, have you ever confronted your husband about his abuse? Has he shown signs of wanting to change? If not, then it's time for you to leave. You shouldn't be in an abusive relationship and one that makes you turn to drugs as a form of escapism. Please know that there are so many options for you to leave and be safe. Do you have family or friends nearby who you can stay with?

my kids and family are all on his side i try to tell him he hurts me in so many ways that he makes me run for the drug but he doesnt listen know i have a blk and blu eye from him i took off walking from our work and i called him a cople hours later to pick me up he did but while he was driving he reached over and started hitting me in the face. ive also tryed to get himm to attand family meetings with me he said there stupid and wont go i had 7 free psycological meetings to go to well they took away my car so guess wt i couldnty go i asked some one to take me they wouldnt i know i need to leave i just havent worked any were never had to been with himfor 36 yrs and datedfrom age 16 so iam scared

OK, well this is just my opinion and we are about the same age, as well...I have been doing this drug on and off for about 4 years. Prior to that, I had 20 years of clean time from it. 20 years. that's a lot of recovery time, so I think I could consider myself someone with some knowledge and having relapsed well, add that to the mix. You will not stop the crack binges completely until you get out of an unhappy situation. Separate from your husband and whatever you have to do, wherever you have to go, please go and get the help and support that you will need if you are ever going to recover from this drug. It all ends BAD! Trust me! I used to turn to it recently in my big relapse because of sheer unhappiness, mistakenly believing that I was temporarily "escaping" from the stress of an unhappy situation that I was in. It won't make it better, it does not last and it will cost you everything and I mean EVERYTHING, including the possibility of your own life! I nearly died twice while doing it and STILL kept going back for more!!! Now, THAT truly is insanity and the insanity of the disease of addiction which is trying to do the same thing over and over again expecting different results! Slowly, I am finding happiness. Everyday is not bliss and I have yet to say that I am anywhere near happiness, I have some pretty bleak days and lots of ups and downs but I will tell you this, the longer that you stay completely away from crack and the people, places and things associated with a completely destructive and negative, evil, degrading drug, the better you will start to feel. Do not let this abusive man belittle you! He obviously has NO/ZERO understanding of you and the addiction/disease that you have and never will! Just do the work that it takes and become the woman, the great Mom, sister, friend that you know that you are and can be and believe me, your family will see this and see the miracle that you are and have you in their lives again, you loving them and them loving you! I know you wrote this post a while back and I hope and pray that you have found a new way to live. God Bless and I do hope that this helped someone. It helps me to help and to also express.

I live in small town nebr away from old stomping grounds but cravings are still so strong. What to do