Emotions - Day 9

Hi Peg

Well Deb I would have to agree. I don think I would want to shake to much up for the next 6 months to a 1 yr. Best to keep recovery a priority.! I understand about how emotions start to thaw out. I think at my stage of the game trying to stay level and dealing with life with some sort of consistancy is more relevant in my quest for continuing sobriety. You know, keep doing the things that work! Become dedicated, have integraty, morals, no more scheming! Don t stray to far from the beam! use my 6th sence! keep focusing on how great my life really is and how much better its going to get, become a eternal optomist. Just learn how to put my best spirit forward. Invision that all my dreams are already a reality. When things get tough learn to "suck it up" life doesn t always give us what we were expecting! the best lad plans often cave in on us!

You know Deb I believe life is a gift and that anything can be accomplished if we learn focus on the things we love and get out of our own damn way.

Talk to you soon Deb

No work tomorrow "yeah"

wow Mark, really awesome stuff here, absolutely
brother, i hear you !!! thanks for that charge of enthusiasm

I'm so glad you have the day off tomorrow Mark and no more o.t. that must have been a good move for many reasons, as you sound a lot better since you made that decision

i think you have hit that "enough is enough" w/ that old tired business

compared to life in the spirit there is no comparison, with time under your belt you will say to yourself WTH did i ever even do that for!!

you sound really good, I agree 6 mos to 1 yr is a solid plan you can afford to live with Mark and you know what? it will be NICE and even FUN for a change
it's like getting to know yourself all over again!
this fighting against the crack demon truly will bring out the best in you and you are now able to be your own best friend!
instead of w/ crack we were our own worst enemies, no more!
as the saying goes sick and tired of being sick and tired
no more!

way to go Mark, truly inspirational post my dear friend.

Dear Pegasus I loved ur post,

Iam bulimic, so i have many thoughts and imotions going on my mind.
Sometimes i want to sleep in order not to think of my weight and diet and food :(

It is a long struggle...
I have to be patient as you mentioned above...

Thanks dear :)

wow Reham i use the affectionate term "dear" as well

so let me return your kind words w/ thank you!

yes, good things are worth waiting for though right?
keep the light on at end of tunnel of your goals and be happy w/ the incremental progress, sure you know all this already, baby steps
realistic goals..that you can achieve
!!! thax it is nice to hear that something that i said helped!

My beloved Pagasus,

i hope u r gr8,,well for the 1st time since 8 years, i ate all i wished and gained 2 kilos in a week without feeling guilty :)))

I was on Alex with my Husband and we enjoyed alot, although we walked about 2 hours per day i gained 2 kilos,,, maybe it is water,, i do not know...

I liked eating ice cream daily, aND CHEESE CAKE , THE FOOD TASTED GR8 UNDER THE UMBEREALLA INFRONT OF THE SEA...

i hope i will not be scared of food anymore;-)

kisses xoxoxo

Hello Reham!

I am so glad to hear from you dear!

No guilt is a good thing

you know I have not really had a food problem per se
but i have seen myself indulge in bad habits and also in good ones

i have seen myself thru destructive periods not eat
and how our moods are tied to food
2 ways
what we eat affects how we feel
and how we feel affects what and how we eat

I am guessing now if we make the effort and pay attn to this we do not have to be at the control of IT instead WE can be in control.

Knowing ourselves! It sounds to me healthy that you allowed yourself to indulge,
2 kilos is nothing girl and certainly nothing to worry for
look at BIG picture!

and i say let yourself indulge, knowing yourself, cuz in the big picture you are overall eating well, you are getting your drinking water in each day, and you are exercising.

if you allow yourself to indulge once in awhile maybe that is a healthy way to deal w/ the food disorder????

Never be afraid to be yourself

I am glad you are overcoming your issues w/ food
and getting back to yourself
that you will not let it have that control over you , you will be in control of it instead!

i hope with you Reham!

if it makes you feel any better, I am addicted to those orange icicles w/ the vanilla center ?? right? so they say on the box only 70 calories and no fat ? that makes me feel better, they say no transfats again I feel better

but in the middle of the night i get these damn sweet tooths so i eat one,
and then i do the whole, i'll only have "one more"
and of course get another.
but the point is I LET MYSELF DO THIS, as you say no guilt.

the rest of my diet is comprised of healthy foods

I am fortunate in that my S.O. buys our food he won't buy stuff w/ poisen (trans fats) so he gets snacks w/o.
I am not able to shop or else we'd have a lot of junk food in our shelves, lol
so I have to eat whatever is here
and then i have a well balanced diet because he makes our dinner each night and I am on my own til he gets home .

so i'm eating well for the most part , I do not worry if I overindulge from time to time w/ my orange pops!

also, I had been thinking recently for my own eating issues to do the Albert Einstein thing: you know he had 5 suits of clothes exact same, reason was because he did not want to spend time and energy deciding what to wear each day
then he could think instead of other things

well i'm adopting that to my own eating problems
cuz
of the moods and eating and how they work together, and we are all different w/ different nutritional needs to perform at our optimal best, w/ differing amounts of energy we use to do what we do in our own lives right?

so for me, I have found that if i eat:

tuna fish
peanut butter jelly
whole wheat bread
salad
dinner of pasta or fish or chicken
egg salad

i get the stuff in me i need so i do not mood swing
add : peanuts, bananas , and my orange creamsicles for my snacks

so i just basically now am eating the same food every day
because i know that around a certain time i will start mood swinging from lack of food and i know that when i eat a pnut butter jelly i immediate feel better

i eat my salad every night cuz my SO makes em w/ our dinner

so i just need to eat my healthy snacks during day and meals that i now I will feel just about as good as I can feel these days , all things considered

if i know these foods work well with me and are not unhealthy
then i simply repeat those same meals every day.

wow, didn't know i was gonna have the chance to discuss this

but what we eat and eating proper is VERY IMPORTANT when we are healthy and esp when we are not healthy

it is a huge deal ! so my heart goes out to anyone suffering the food disorder.
cuz hell it's hard enough even when you do not!

oh Lord, it is the longest and nicest answer ever on my eating disorder :D

You can not imagine how much i appreciate ur tipss and your food plan.

I believe that i will follow Einstein, in order not to think alot of food ;)

i work 9 hours daily and loose 3 hourse in transportation, so i have 6 hours to sleep and hours for my 9 cats, tv and my husband :)

So i need to manage my time in a better way, i will copy paste what you wrote and print it, so i can remember Einstein to avoid mood swings..

stay happy and positive and fearless dear..xoxoxo

wow 9 cats hun? yu with the cats and me with the dogs , as I've 9 dogs right now.
at least until i can find decent homes for a few.

yes, i am doing this with food
funny this shows up on the Emotion
i had not thought about the food thing so much

but i know for my own eating habits is tied to my mood
again , let us not let our moods control us and what we eat thus making it worse
let us control what we eat to control the moods and stabilize

yes i am doing this too

the easier we make it on ourselves to eat right the better our chances will be to do it.

glad it helped you dear

bananas and nuts are very good for mood stabilization
and for on the go foods

treat the foods like meds you have to take certain amounts certain types at certain frequencies.

i love dogs sooooooo much, but iam a muslim, so in my religion i can not keep one at my flat, because angels do not enter the house that contains dogs or human pictures or sculptures :((

iam so tired today, and need to sleep, so i ate 3 chocolates, which is not healthy at all :(((

The good thing that i knew now that i binge when iam tired, so later on i will stop my self...

I hope u r fine ;)))

tired equals REST, food for energy
and rest for energy...